I should be beaming with excitement at the thought of my 3 week adventure (by myself) to India in just 4 days. But I have to share something with you… this girl isn’t beaming as brightly as she should be!
I haven’t exactly shared my feelings about this trip on the blog because; well, I wasn’t ready to face the fact that I was downright mortified to go. But now that the trip is fast approaching, I’m stuck having to deal with the fears surrounding it.
Booking this trip was a spur-of-the-moment thing. Had I let myself think about it, I wouldn’t have gone through with it. So I didn’t give myself that opportunity. I booked it, I announced it to the world, and that was that.
Since then, I’ve been battling with a slew of mind chatter – will I be safe? Will my bag get stolen at the airport? Will I get lost? Will I get mugged? Will Kevin and the dogs be okay? What will I eat? What if I miss my flight? What if I don’t like it there? Will my food get taken away? Will I meet people that like me? The anxiety grew stronger and stronger for 4 solid months.
It wasn’t until a couple of days ago that I finally connected my announcement with the odd health issues I’ve been struggling with. Without even realizing it, my anxiety was so intense that it was affecting the way my body functioned. So crazy, right?
Since making this connection, I’ve had to come to terms with my fears, pull myself out of the dark place, and basically get a grip on myself! Because; dude, I’m spending 3 weeks at an ashram. That’s cool. I shouldn’t let my fears get in the way of an amazing experience like this.
So today I’m going to think positively, tell myself over and over that this trip is going to ROCK, and drink an apple pie green smoothie for good measure.
Won’t you join me?
- ½ cup water
- ½ cup unsweetened unpasteurized apple juice
- 1 tablespoon walnuts
- ½ teaspoon ground cinnamon
- ¼ teaspoon vanilla extract or maple extract
- pinch ground nutmeg
- ½ English cucumber
- 2 cups spinach
- 1 apple, chopped and frozen
- ¼ avocado, chopped and frozen
- 4-6 ice cubes
- Place in your blender in the order of the ingredients listed, then blend for 30 seconds or until smooth.
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What fears have you conquered? How did you keep yourself grounded while preparing to conquer them?