February 26, 2011 By Leanne Vogel July 21, 2015Money was tight while I was growing up. To make ends meet, my parents worked long hours and had many commitments that pulled them in one-hundred different directions. Hard work, endless to do lists, and constant busyness was the theme of my childhood. Don’t get me wrong, my parents were fantastic and did the best they could with what we had. But somewhere, somehow my view of life got twisted. I saw success as being defined by how many activities I could pack into my day, that accomplishment was being perfect at everything I tried, no matter how long it took me to master. So, the older I got, the more stress that filled my life. I was so obsessed with how many things I could master that I didn’t care how many people I hurt, and as a result I never truly got to know myself. Questions like “what do I want to do?”, “What makes me happy?”, or “What do I like?” were never a part of my life. Instead, I had my eye on the prize, my head full of fallacies, and no understanding of who I was in this world. I wish I could tell you that there was a momentous event that changed everything, but I can’t. I believe my choice to begin to know myself came with my decision to begin to love myself. Over the last 5 years, I’ve taken steps for me, I’ve asked myself what it is I want, I’ve made tough decisions, and I’ve learned to love being alone with myself [used to totally freak me out]. I began with going back to school to get an education in Holistic Nutrition, I left a toxic relationship of 5 years with nothing but a bag full of clothes and a couple boxes [of kitchen supplies of course], I bought my first apartment and began to feel comfortable on my own for the first time in my life, I signed up for a 7 day Deepak Chopra class to learn how to meditate and sit comfortably with myself, I started training for a marathon, and I started this blog. All of these steps were a little bit larger than the last, but each and every one of them have helped me progress toward getting to know myself, understanding how to love myself, and stepping out of my comfort zone. Although I’d love to say that I’ve mastered the task, I’ve realized that getting to know me isn’t about an end goal, a final accomplishment, or plaque on the wall, its about the journey. It’s an ongoing pursuit of balance, filled with love, questions, reflection, and tough decisions. Life is what we make of it and I’ve learned that it’s a much funner ride when we truly know ourselves, and love ourselves, because being consumed by activities, false dreams, and empty thoughts can be one lonely road. Do you stop to check in with yourself, enjoy life, and love what’s around you?
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Hi! I’m Leanne (RHN FBCS)
a Keto Nutritionist, host of The Keto Diet Podcast, and best-selling author of The Keto Diet & Keto for Women. I want to live in a world where every woman has access to knowledge to better her health.