Living Fearless

To read more on the living series; a selection of lessons I learned in India, be sure to check out living every moment, and living open, connected and vulnerable.

I’m baaaack!

It took me 2 full days to get home but thanks to the wonderful powers of my homeopathic jet lag pills I’m up early this morning and ready to conquer the day.

Last time we talked, I was living every moment in India and confident that staying at the ashram was what I needed to do even though many of my new-found friends were escaping the ashram and heading to Varkala beach.

I was struggling with whether to stay on the path I’d planned out for myself, or venture out and explore a bit of India before I headed home in 5 days. The thought of leaving the ashram nearly paralyzed me. I was so scared at the thought of deviating from the plan that I was letting fear dictate my experience.

In the end, I chose a path I would generally never venture down. I made exit plans with a fellow yogi; Jody, put trust in a stranger, packed my bags and ventured blindly.

The moment I decided to take this leap, I started developing a head cold. It came on so suddenly and had me holding my throat in agony as my glands swelled up, nose got all stuffy, and my temperature increased. I’m convinced it was my body’s way of cleansing myself of all of the fear I was holding on to.

Regardless of my fever and fear, what I was doing felt so good.

I didn’t have a plan, I didn’t know where I was going to stay, I had no idea what to expect, and to my surprise, I was excited!

Jody and I arrived around 4pm and spent upwards of 2 hours trying to find a place to stay. In the end, she ended up in one hotel and I ended up in another.

My room was 500 rupees per night ($10USD), on the second floor, had it’s own private bathroom, was 30 seconds away from the beach and had one of the most amazing landladies.

We dropped off our bags and headed out to the cliff; an area with endless shops and gorgeous views of the ocean, to find our yogi friends for dinner.

Moments later, I sat with a lemon water in one hand and a spoon in the other in front of the most gorgeous tomato basil salad you’ve ever seen (coming from a girl who hadn’t had a fresh vegetable in over 2 weeks), and the ocean as the evenings’ backdrop. I was the happiest and proudest girl in the world.

I had faced my fears, gone against the plan, and trusted my intuition.

The next morning I woke up completely clear of my head cold and ready to continue on with my fearless journey!

First order of business? Spending the morning lounging in my hammock finishing off my book.

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  1. Leanne, looking at the picture of you before you left, and looking at the picture of you upon your return, you look like a changed person. Not physically, but there’s just a more relaxed, accomplished look in your eyes. You should be sooo proud of yourself a hundred times over because you conquered your fears, fulfilled one of your dreams, and DID IT. You followed your heart’s desire and that is SO important, I can’t imagine how gratified you feel. There’s always been a big part of me that wants to just GO, see the world, fulfill my dreams of travel, and live my life to it’s fullest. Reading how scared you were and how you were able to push through those fears is reassurance that when the time comes, I will be able to do the same. Thank you for being so inspiring, Leanne. Truly. Much love :)

    • Thanks Andrea, I truly feel like a different person. This experienced changed me… forever. And when you’re ready to take your own journey, trust that you’ll be safe and you’ll experience everything you’re meant to. India has a magical way of giving you exactly what you need.

  2. Leanne – I think we are all so intrigued by your trip to India. I hope I can look forward to many more blogs about your experience. It would be great to know where you decided to go, why did you choose that place and was it safe?! I have always wanted to go but have been fearful as well! Do the people speak English?

    • I have about a billion posts I want to write about my experiences. I need a couple of days to figure out how best to document it all! Everywhere I went was safe, even when I was walking around aimlessly in Mumbai at 9pm. SO many people speak English, and if they don’t they all have the patience to go through each word with you until they understand what you mean, and that’s only in the very, very small villages. There’s something to be said about that experience too, in trying to communicate with pictures, your hands, and anything else you can use!

  3. I am so excited to read more about your trip, your journey sounds amazing! And you look the happiest ever :-)

  4. Leanne I am SO happy for and proud of you!! :D your smile is huge and beaming and look look positively glowy!

    This is exactly what Jason and I did for the month we spent in Mexico a couple months ago – we had one night booked when we landed, and after that we just backpacked and found our way up the coast, staying in places as we went… it was so freeing and spectacular, and everyone should do it at least once! :D we can’t wait to go somewhere else and do it again!

    so glad you are having a great time, and that you are getting your fresh veggies again! XO

  5. Leanne,
    It’ s so beautiful that you followed your heart’s desire. You are couragous to overcome your fear. I congratulate you.

  6. You inspire me to eat healthy all the time, but also to live big. I really really really look up to you!

    “I had faced my fears, gone against the plan, and trusted my intuition.” <–note to self: do more of this!

  7. you go girl! Give up the worries and fear takes guts. But it’s when we push past this that we gain the most valuable lessons about ourselves. Btw that hammock looks so comfy…i’m jealous haha!

  8. Long time reader, first time commenting…

    I know this is kinda strange to hear coming from a stranger, but I am SO proud of you! I’m a rather shy person, and so I know how hard it is to venture outside of a comfort zone. You not only ventured out, but in a foreign country. Good for you! I’m so glad it was successful.

    • Hi Sarah, thanks for leaving a comment, for following my blog, and for bringing a huge smile to my face this evening :) Thank you!

  9. What a grand experience this journey of yours was, Leanne, and thank you so much for sharing with us. Now you’ve got me wanting to leave and get out of my comfort zone also, explore new horizons and connect wity my inner self.

    Hats off to you for completing this “challenge”. And thanks a million for the inspiration…

    You’re simply awesome! :)

    • Thanks, Sonia :) I’m happy my story is resonating with you!

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