Apple Pie Green Smoothie

I should be beaming with excitement at the thought of my 3 week adventure (by myself) to India in just 4 days. But I have to share something with you… this girl isn’t beaming as brightly as she should be!

I haven’t exactly shared my feelings about this trip on the blog because; well, I wasn’t ready to face the fact that I was downright mortified to go. But now that the trip is fast approaching, I’m stuck having to deal with the fears surrounding it.

Booking this trip was a spur-of-the-moment thing. Had I let myself think about it, I wouldn’t have gone through with it. So I didn’t give myself that opportunity. I booked it, I announced it to the world, and that was that.

Since then, I’ve been battling with a slew of mind chatter – will I be safe? Will my bag get stolen at the airport? Will I get lost? Will I get mugged? Will Kevin and the dogs be okay? What will I eat? What if I miss my flight? What if I don’t like it there? Will my food get taken away? Will I meet people that like me? The anxiety grew stronger and stronger for 4 solid months.

It wasn’t until a couple of days ago that I finally connected my announcement with the odd health issues I’ve been struggling with. Without even realizing it, my anxiety was so intense that it was affecting the way my body functioned. So crazy, right?

Since making this connection, I’ve had to come to terms with my fears, pull myself out of the dark place, and basically get a grip on myself! Because; dude, I’m spending 3 weeks at an ashram. That’s cool. I shouldn’t let my fears get in the way of an amazing experience like this.

So today I’m going to think positively, tell myself over and over that this trip is going to ROCK, and drink an apple pie green smoothie for good measure.

Won’t you join me?

Apple Pie Green Smoothie

Vegan, Gluten free, Dairy free, Sugar free, Yeast free, Corn free, Grain free

Treat your taste buds with apple pie in the morning! Instead of using almond milk with this smoothie, I opted for water with 1 tablespoon walnuts to increase the fiber and healthy fats in this breakfast treat! The carb count is higher than my average smoothie, making it a great snack before an intense workout or highly stressful day.

Yield: ~2.5 cups

Servings: 1


  • 1/2 cup water
  • 1/2 cup unsweetened unpasteurized apple juice
  • 1 tablespoon walnuts
  • 1/2 teaspoon ground cinnamon
  • 1/4 teaspoon vanilla extract or maple extract
  • pinch ground nutmeg
  • 1/2 English cucumber
  • 2 cups spinach
  • 1 apple, chopped and frozen
  • 1/4 avocado, chopped and frozen
  • 4-6 ice cubes


Place in your blender in the order of the ingredients listed, then blend for 30 seconds or until smooth.

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What fears have you conquered? How did you keep yourself grounded while preparing to conquer them?

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  1. Leanne, what a beautiful and honest post. I imagine this wasn’t easy to write (and admit), at all.
    For what it is worth, as an avid reader of your blog, as hard as it is to hear you are going through this and I am sorry that you are, it is also quite refreshing to read. It is really easy to read about someone else’s life through single blog posts and imagine how perfect things are outside of the lines of text. I have been thinking so much about your trip, as it is a trip I hope to take myself someday, and I keep thinking about how well you have been handling it, how much you are getting done before such a big trip, etc. Envious of the fact that you could even make the decision to go in the first place, let alone booking the trip and actually doing it. That is so huge and admirable. I am not sure my own fears would even let me get to the point where I could book it, so you should be very proud of yourself.
    I am sure the minute you step away from your daily life and get onto that first plane, your fears will turn into just the excitement and you will giggle at some point while relaxing in the middle of your trip that you were ever scared.
    Thanks so much for sharing this Leanne, it resonates pretty hardcore for me :)

    • Aw, thanks Beth. Your words were exactly what I needed to hear! It hasn’t been easy at all and I’ve felt so guilty for even toying with the idea that I don’t want to go. I know I want to go, but there’s so much anxiety there! As always, we owe it to ourselves to push those limits. Because you’re right, I’ll be halfway through my trip loving every moment and giggle at the fact that I was scared to do it. Once I imagine myself there, like actually there, I’m fine. Thanks again ;)

  2. I don’t know much about your trip but nerves are natural. India is breathtaking and once there you will really enjoy it, will you blog about? And the smoothie, yum.

  3. Nerves are not uncommon at all! Once you get there your going to have such a great time – don’t worry!

    I was planning an apple smoothie this morning too! Definitely adding cucumber to the mix after reading this – thanks!

  4. Great post…thanks for being so open and honest! I think we can all relate to it in some way! That apple pie green smoothie sounds tasty! :)

  5. I get nervous about traveling too, but it’s good to come to terms with it beforehand instead of having all that anxiety while you are traveling. When you are somewhere completely new it’s best to try and soak it in the best you can! Last time I traveled my body reacted in all sorts of crazy ways due to nerves and stress, but once I realized it I quickly got over it and had a great time! (and I was doing yoga everyday… so that helped too!)

  6. It may be that your fears are part of the process of going to India. “Going to India” can also be a metaphor for the spiritual quest that you’re beginning. I haven’t been there myself, but others who have done similar travels tell of fears on their way. I think you have to let yourself go into the adventure. If your plans are set awry and you need something, trust that you’ll find someone able to offer it to you. It sounds like a wonderful journey. I hope you enjoy it. I’ve heard many areas around ashrams smell like flowers in the night.

  7. Girl I can completely!!! relate to you about booking a trip semi spur of the moment and then as the time draws closer, have tons of anxiety to the point of not wanting to go (or canceling it…which I have done). Trips sometimes sound amazing from behind your desk chair months in advance but then actually doing it and getting on the plane by yourself can be a totally different story. Or the energy you had for it in say January is replaced with different energy in May, different life circumstances, etc so come May, actually taking that trip isn’t exactly sounding so “fun”. Everything you said, I can relate to and I am sorry you’re having anxiety but thank you for sharing it all!

    I made an apple pie smoothie last week. Yours sounds so good!

  8. Good morning Leanne,,,sooo making that Delishes looking smoothie(I have that glass and straw too-but my pictures would never look so good!
    Such honesty,,,,and I think it is normal for all of us….I’m sure once your on the flight you will be filled with more excitement then anxiety(it still is not nice to go thru—but it is all a learning thing we go thru–and come thru even better).
    I’ve been thinking about your up coming trip(with a little jealousy-being honest) and will be thinking of you as you are on your awesome holiday,,,,have fun, relax and totally enjoy:-)

  9. Thank the Universe that you are connected with your self. I think reading this, this is what I marveled at most–the fact that you aware with your emotions and what is going on. Sometimes I think it’s not really the emotions that matter but the fact that we can connect the dots and understand what is going on. I always love your honesty, L. You are such a bright light and I cannot wait to hear how changed your insides are going to be because of the 3 week adventure. Gah, tearing up for you right now.

  10. Hopefully knowing that there are some wonderful experiences and hopefully equally wonderful people waiting for you at the ashram will get you past some of your fears. There is always the unknown and that gets us every time! Remember to breathe, remember that the idea is to get outside yourself and do somethine completely different and that may mean going outside your comfort zone and letting go of some control (which is always scary!) but that the result will likely be amazing and transformative. If you lose your bag, it’s not the end of the world (trust me, I have lost my bag). If you have to eat unusual foods you will survive (I’ve eaten things I couldn’t even identify), and I’ve had things go terribly off plan and found something even better…you’re ready…and I can’t wait to hear how it goes! Safe travels (and remember you won’t be alone – we’re all going with you – vicariously at least!)

  11. I went to Europe by myself a couple years ago (35 days, 11 countries, and 1 suitcase!) and was TERRIFIED. I booked the trip 2 weeks before departure – like you, I knew I wouldn’t go if I didn’t do it spur-of-the-moment like that. The only one of my fears that came true was gaining weight, but shit, I was in EUROPE for 5 weeks! Traveling alone can be scary, but trust me, it’ll all work out, and you’ll come back with so many irreplaceable memories that later on, you’ll marvel at the fact that you were ever worried about going. Have a blast!

  12. Girl, I’m so beyond proud of you!! Way to see the fears {Hardest Part} and actually OWNING them and working through them!!! I love how open you are and how connected you allow yourself to feel.

    My biggest fear was everything!! I was fearful daily…until I saw a life coach and became one has my fear been more under control! LOL!!

    Love you!

  13. Leanne, sometimes admitting your fears helps you to conquer them.. and it seems as though letting it out and telling your readers about your fears about this *amazing* trip has helped you and will help you so much more! It’s hard when you have so many fears and “what ifs” running through your mind, but when you think about all of the amazing things that can come from it, and what a great opportunity it is, the pros often weigh out the cons. :) Have FUN on this trip and bask in the glory of being an independent woman who fulfills her desires!! :)

  14. Leanne – what a great, honest post! It really spoke to me as I also struggle with anxiety. All too often I turn what will be an amazing experience into something horrible because of my anxiety. A lot of people around me don’t understand that I don’t want to be like that and they think I am ungrateful for having “this” or “that” opportunity for something…It’s just not true. Anxiety is very powerful and can be debilitating…
    I think it’s great that you have acknowledged the feeling and dare I say “let it go”…?

    The anticipation is the worst…but once you are there – everything always seems to work out the way it should. It might not always be what we expeced – sometimes it might be more :) Other times…it might be less…but it’s an experience none the less :)

    I wish you safe travels, a calm heart, and all the best.

    PS: It’s really inspirational for me to read that even though it made you anxious – you are going to India! <3

  15. First, admitting that you are freaked out is best! It’s hardest when you try and pretend it’s fine. Of course you should be freaked out!! But you know what? This will probably be one of the most amazing experiences of your life, so embrace that and just don’t worry about everything that can go wrong. And my stomach definitely acts up when I have anxiety. Stress and your digestive system are very linked!

  16. This has really nothing to do with the smoothie itself (Which sounds/looks amazing!) but with the awesome hard boiled egg holder! It’s fantastic!! I’ll have to give the smoothie a try as well..especially since the leaf green spinach doesn’t get into my body enough. Thanks Leanne!

    • Thanks, Jeff! I found it at Value Village the other day and nearly died with excitement. It was 10 cents!

  17. Hi Leanne, I really appreciate how honest and real your posts always are :) and I can completely follow how you feel, and how awful these sorts of feelings can be.

    I haven’t done anything quite as brave as what you’re about to do… well, I did embark on a three week trip to Greenland alone to hang out with my then-boyfriend, meaning I was mentally impaired by Cupid and as such didn’t freak out as usually… because normally I always end up freaking out quite severely before a trip (or other social gatherings). Sadly, I really do have an anxiety problem (I expect this is part of the reason for a lot of my body issues). Oh the times I have had crying-fits about not wanting to go, how the trip is sure to be a disaster and how I will hate every minute of it – and mind you I have been a scout for 10 years+, so that’s a lot of trips! It just keeps happening even though things has usually (probably like always) turned out awesome and great!

    I rarely truly overcome my fear enough for me to bounce right off at adventures, so I actually don’t really know how I occasionally overcome my fear; but the aid of motivating people of different sorts seems to play in on kicking myself that last step of the way :)

    A couple of years ago I did challenge myself a bit, and went out spending about two weeks alone with my backpack walking the coastline of an small island and hanging out in the capital city; but until I was solid placed on the train I wasn’t sure I was going… actually it wasn’t until I was ON the island I knew I was going to go through with it :) and previously that year I freaked myself out just by going to London for less than a day (however during the night)… but oh how it felt awesome afterwards :D nothing can quite compete with that feeling of having overcome fear!

    I’m glad you’ve found a way to tune in on positive thoughts :) and I hope you’ll have a fantastic trip, it sure sounds envy-inspiring! Have fun and enjoy what is sure to be a truly beautiful visit :)

    Oh and of course, thanks so much for sharing this absolutely fantastic blog with oh so many delicious-looking dishes! You’re very inspirational :)

  18. Good luck on your trip! That is awesome how you turned the negative into positive. And I love the color in this smoothie!

  19. Have a wonderful time!! Love the website! I think you packed more food than things to wear! LOl LOL..I will be praying for your nerves to settle.
    I remember when my daughter went to Africa for a month, with a group called STAT, .Yes I missed her, but the chance for her to see the world, and learn other cultures was a blessing to her..Take a deep breath, drink some herbal tea, and enjoy….can’t wait till you are back!!! Hugs :)

  20. Super yummy winner! The texture was a little too thick for my preference, so I added some goat milk. Heavenly.

    • Great call on the goat milk! Glad you liked the recipe, Caroline :)

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